9. Lily Allen - Sheezus
8. Caitlin Rose - Own Side
7. Joanna Pacitti - Out From Under
6. Our Last Night - Wrecking Ball
5. 2NE1 - Come Back Home
4. Sia - Chandelier
Uhh. Sungguh excited hati beta. Besok pagi mau balik Tawau. AWYEAHHH!!! Dah 3 bulan kot nda balik. Ini kali lahhh!
Well, this vacation cannot come at a much better time. Ngam betul laa sekarang, considering how fucked up things are now. HAHA. Things are getting pretty "heavy" right now. I don't know what happen, but things seem to be going downhill. A lot of it has to do with my personal relationship issues. Yeap, I cannot believe I will let this thing to take over me. But shit happened, I mean, look at your face. LOL. Just kidding.
So, this vacation will be a perfect get away for me. I will take this week off to just stay away from all the dramas, regroup and refocus, and pull myself together. Let things slow down on their own, and then I will take action when I can see clearly already.
Hopefully I will come back stronger and a much better person. I need to learn how to truly forgive, for that is the only way to make my heart a better place. In the mean time, Imma take my time off and enjoy my vacation!
See you soon. :)
You say you're strong, you went to hell and back
But none of those nightmares is something that I can take
Compared to me who go through life like a karate kid
Life has no mercy, even a little bit.
Say you're tough, fight till the break of dawn
But can you imagine fighting emotionally on your own?
Used to be parts happiness but now it's gone
Fighting on my own, stand up all alone.
At times I feel like giving up, at times I feel broken
There are so many words that left unspoken
The pain will never stop, so I have to be strong
I am all by myself, everything feels so wrong.
Wish I could turn back the hands of time and fix this
Coz I can't pretend that you don't exists
But as for now I seems to be helpless
I've admit my sins, no more time to confess.
Say you're strong and tough, but I'm not impress at all
I fight the unthinkable fight, all on my own
I fell on my back, I cried, nd now I crawl
YEAH I'M A FIGHTER, FIGHTING THIS FIGHT ON MY OWN.
Special shout out to Mari, who inspires this poem. I feel your pain.
First and for most, I would like to apologize sebab nda dapat update my blog this week. Again. Huhu. Bukan pasal pa, busy gila wehh. Nanti aku update gak tu Pujaan Hati but y'all need to wait next week for my new post on Top 10 Most Listen To.
Baa. Macam yang aku cakap, memang busy gila weh. Mostly it is regarding on my master's degree. Alhamdulillah, sudah settle semua urusan. Punya banyak cabaran time minggu pendaftaran tu. Thank God I have my family. My mom and dad, as well as my bro and sis never stop supporting me. Rasa bersalah jugak sebab terlampau membebankan dorang but this is the path that I have chosen. Ini pun utk my parents juga. InsyaAllah nanti aku balas jua semua jasa dorang dengan aku. Amin. Urusan permohonan biasiswa pulak berjalan lancar. Thanks to my bestie la sbb sama-sama susahkan diri. HAHA.
I have the chance to do the thing that I love right now, which is teaching and sharing knowledge. Sudah jadik demonstrator untuk lab sekarang. Enjoy jua la sbb dapat share ilmu and ajar my juniors everything that I used to learn. It gives me a new perspective towards people. Teaching allows me to stop looking at them as strangers, but instead as a junior who is wiling to learn. Tambah-tambah lagi aku kenal some of them, so it was fun.
Sekarang sudah start volleyball season lagik. It was a tough starting for me. Ya laa. Da gained weight, plus sudah berapa lama tidak sentuh bola. HAHA. But now we have been playing like crazy. So slowly, I am getting my rhythm back. But still need lots of improvement. Game paling dekat ni nanti mid-March di Beaufort. It will be my 1st game since SUKIPT. Tapi yg best nya, ada 2 game lagi dtg menyusul, Liga Sukan UMS dengan Sukan Massa. Naa. Ini kali lah!
Personally, I am in a much better place now. Ya la. Semua urusan suda setel (bila kunun aku mau pi buat kad matrik ni?). Plus, I already made a promise that I will be nice to my shitheads. Hehe. So far I am doing good. Bukan apa, rasa mcm hidup da mula stabil, sudah mula happy, so patutnya aku kenak jadi lebih positif. They are my shitheads after all. They are the ones that make me happy. Tapi bukan setakat dorang ja la. Semua orang pun aku layan sama. Lupakan sengketa lama orang bilang. Forgiving is one step forward down the road towards happiness. Forgetting might be impossible, but time heals all wounds. So I will just have to wait.
Tu ja la update setakat ne. All is well. Harap-harap berterusan. Amin. Ba tunggu ja la my next post on Pujaan Hati and Top 10 Most Listen To. Ngantuk sudah ni. Penat dari volleyball session. Selamat malam dunia.