It has been a while since I have been here. Haha. But per
usual, things have been, umm, how to say, emotionally exhausting I guess.
There are so many issues that I have to deal with as for the
moment. First, there is this graduation thing coming up. I dunno why but I feel
like graduation is a big step for me. It means that I am officially out there
in the world on my own. I feel like I am not ready yet. It is a big world out
there, how am I going to survive?
Then there is this big thing called Sukan IPT. This game is
HUGE. Like, really huge. I don’t know if I really want to be there to play for
my varsity, or just to be there for my friends. Somehow, I am caught up in
between those feelings and seem to be unsure about why am I really there for
training and stuffs. Hmm.
And, for sure, this won’t be my post without my complicated
relationships. I dunno why but I feel like more and more I have becoming a
walking kiss of death of friendship. I met up with some of the greatest people
ever, but I tend to push them far away. I don’t know, it is just the way it is.
I do want to stop, I do want to make things work coz I am so fed up of being in
this situation over and over again, but I just could not stop.
It makes me mad coz at the end of the day, I feel lonely. Seriously.
And not to mention my ongoing crisis with my shitheads and the feeling of
not-belong in my team. This is just too much. I really need some time to get
away. Like, pronto.
Don’t know how long I can take this anymore.
Please listen to my multi-platinum album 4 and you will feel whole again.
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