Tears & Laugh

i don't know why but somehow i feel like life is a dungeon in which happiness and sufferings co-exist together very well. one day you're the happiest guy ever walked in Earth, and the next day you wish that you had not live at all. ya ya, i know. that's life, right? but the question is, why should we live like that? can't we just be happy all the time? and if you are stupid enough, you will ask yourself can we be miserable all the time? (noob!)

well i have my fair share of the situation quite a handful of time and it sucks. it's like one moment you won your Olympic gold medal and broke the world record and the next second you are told that the winning is fraud as you are suppose to compete in the senior category other than the junior one.

but then again, that's life. shits happen no matter how happy you are. it is just inevitable. that's just how the way things are. just like with day comes the night, with hot comes the cold, with rain comes the sunshine, and with boys come the girls (but there is a gay factor, but we'll leave that to your imagination).

what i am trying to say is, it is always a revolving door. happiness and suffering come and go. but that's not what matter. what matter most is which one of those experiences you will keep within your heart, treasure them, and cherish them for the rest of your beautiful life. see, the problem with us is that we always think having bad experiences will eliminate all the good things that we have been through before. fuck that. i honestly believe that those bad things are what make the good things even more valuable. it's like having Britney Spears as the wig-snatching pop queen with fabulously good music all the time then come the Stupid Lady in the Egg a.k.a Lady Gag-Gag with her insult-to-humanity stupidity trash music.

so, maybe life is a dungeon where tears and laugh share the same space. maybe you can't laugh all day long without shading a bit of tears. but so what? yeah, those things are true but it doesn't mean i have to stop living my life, right? i might laugh this morning and cry my heart out on the shower tonight, but like i said, that's life. at least, i have emotions to explore and i am damn proud of it.

so for you out there who think that you are the only one who goes through emotional roller-coaster on the daily basis, go and smash your head on the mirror and slit your throat for having that thought, coz you are not alone. i am here. :)