Life Goes On

Life goes on. That’s what people always say. Yeap, no matter what, life goes on. No matter what we have been through, ot how hard it is for us, life goes on.

I honestly cannot believe that my time is up in UMS. That’s it, I am done. I am no longer a student there. I can’t help but to feel extremely awkward every time someone comes up to me and ask “still study?” and I have to answer “nope, finished already”. And when I said finish, I literally mean it (at least so far). Like I always said, we always have that certainty – from kindergarten to secondary school, to primary school to pre-U and then varsity eventually. But after varsity? That’s where it gets scary.

As for now, I am currently on my third week of practical and so far, so good. I am adjusting to this life as a non-student and more to a worker - going to work office hour, living in the living room of my friend, taking care everything on my own. Damn! I was so spoiled when I was a child. LOL. But I am adjusting, I am adjusting slowly and steadily.

Being away from home in this state, it makes me understand more and more of how hard it is to have your own life – with limited support system. It is truly a cruel world where the fittest survives. And I am trying to be in that category, and so far, I am doing well.

I don’t want to think so much about the future and what it will bring because I am afraid that I am gonna mess it up. I know, I can’t avoid thinking about it from time to time, but as for now, I am trying to live for the moment. Enjoying every second of it (which is very hard when you come to office and has nothing to do all day). I don’t know where am I going to after this – continue study? Working? Going back home and do nothing? I don’t know.

One good thing is that I started running again. I always love running but somehow I don’t know why I stop. But here, in my new place, I found that passion again. I run again. And it feels so damn good. Running put me in a position where nothing else matter, just me, my stride, and the path. It is the time where I got to be me.

Well, life goes on. For sure it will. I don’t know what will happen next, the future is not one’s to see. But whatever it is, I am gonna put up the best fight that I can and I will win it. Yes, I will.

Ps: today is the birthday of one of my shitheads. Law Lik Huo, happy birthday old bitch! J