selama ne aku da try untuk lupa ma dia. and it worked out pretty well laa, at least for the past 3 to 4 days. sangka aku da cukup kuat. aku yakin da aku dapat lupa ma dia - sampai laa pagi tadi. ntah napa kan - mungkin da takdir Tuhan hari ni aku nda akan happy macam hari-hari yang lalu - aku semangat pla bangun awal hari ni. bosan punya bosan aku trep-trep la kemas-kemas bilik ku tu. skalinya sedang aku skema menyusun DVD, trus terjatuh ni satu kotak kecik. warna hitam. and serta-merta aku broke down.
kotak hitam tu isi dia cincin. cincin yang aku maw kasik si dia.
iklan jap. hmm. bagus kasik title ma dia ne. nda best pla panggil si dia. ermm. panggil dia si Ex ja la. haha. ba sambung--->
kotak hitam tu isi dia cincin. cincin yang aku maw kasik si Ex. trus aku tringat malam pertama kami sms gila-gila sampai subuh tu yang kami nanti kalau jumpa bulan September mau kasik hadiah - mau kasik cincin la, mau kasik CD lagu la, pastu mau tukar-tukar Tshirt kasik jadi sarung bantal. haha. sangat yakin kan kami...
tp ndada da tu semua. tinggal kenangan jaa. wuwuwuwuwuu.. trus dia melekat trus di kepala otak ku sampai sekarang. gara-gara telampau rindu ni aku terus pi mesej dia pi Facebook sama sms dia. haha. adoii. kalah aku. rasa rindu ini melemahkan aku...
kecewa gila aku. aku da try berabes untuk lupa ama dia. aku da try untuk move on. i was doing good for the past 4 days, but now? i have to start all over again. sakit ba ati kalau gitu.. kita da try setengah mati, tp gara-gara satu benda kecil ja - gara-gara cincin ja - semua hancur. hadoii..
bila la aku dapat move on ne? bila la aku dapat lupa ma dia.. he is not my first but truly, his cut is the deepest. mungkin sebab dia orang pertama yang aku betul-betul sayang lepas hampir setahun lebih aku walked out of love after that certain someone (next post: Remembering Gundut). mungkin sebab aku betu;-betul da terikat dengan idea of the perfect September. mungkin sebab aku betul -betul da jatuh hati ma dia.. aku nda tau. tapi yang aku tau, he is stuck like a glue in my head.
deep down inside i still have a little spark of hope for us. mungkin eventually kami dapat jumpa di KK bulan September nanti and get on with our dreams. or mungkin dia akan completely ignore aku for the rest of his life. who knows kan? whatever happened, happened. i just hope that i will be strong enough when the time comes.
nda tau la sampai bila drama ne maw berakhir. haha. sabar ja laa. sapa suruh jua hati tisu kan? cepat betul cair ma pujuk rayu gombal. haha. but i am human with a fragile heart, what to expect? hmm.. let the future reveal all, but as for now, aku sedang derita merindu.
"sooner i start to call you with this nick name
at first i thought it was kinda lame
but it turns out you stuck to it like a glue
that was when i realise i have a feeling for you.."
at first i thought it was kinda lame
but it turns out you stuck to it like a glue
that was when i realise i have a feeling for you.."
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